many parts

i'm a multi-faceted person.

i'm just beginning to embrace that.  at times it's difficult for me to.  in my various roles and responsibilities in life (president, dean, student, son, brother, etc.), at times i find it hard to turn them all off.  or they bleed into one another.  being the president when i would be the son.  acting like a brother when i should be the dean.

i guess maturity helps bring all that together.  however, i think for me it's an added kick:  i see everything all at once. 

i process stuff on a deep level w/o trying.  when it comes to reading, perceiving, or hearing, what other people strain to do i do naturally.  for example, if we both look at a yard in front of a house, you might see a lawn.  i'll see a lawn, but i'll also see all 13,593 blades of grass.  i'll notice the ones that are blowing in opposite directions.  it's not that i perceive better...i just perceive deeper, faster.

it's cool when it comes to being analytical or in situations where you need to keep your wits about you.  unfortunately, it can wear you out.  that's why i usually don't like large crowds at concerts or the like.  i'm taking it all in and it frazzles my system. 

i'm still in process of getting all the pieces together so they won't run into each other.  but what i'm realizing is that some parts are becoming more important to me than others...