note: i also hurt my back in the oddest of ways, but that's a story for another day
anyways, we were talking about relationships. it led me to realize that i desire to get married. i honestly want to share my life with someone. house, kids, an intimate connection w/ that one person. yep. i want it. however, i also realized that i don't want it at the expense of my dreams and aspirations. i want to do something with my life. i want to achieve my goals.
for me, a marriage isn't a destination. would it be a large portion? OF COURSE. but it wouldn't define who i am as a person.
i don't want another person to become absorbed with me. and i don't want to become absorbed with another person. i understand that in order for a relationship like marriage to work there has to be some sort of "need" there, but i wanted to be "wanted" more than i'm needed. i want someone to be such an enhancement to my life that i forget what it was like before she arrived. not that she was "needed" before, but her addition is just that bomb!
i guess it's kind of like a game genie! does anyone else remember that? you attached it to the games and put in all types of codes to help get you through the games. it would enable you to use certain abilities that you either didn't naturally have in the game or that would've taken you a long time to get on your own. you could play the games just fine without it, but having access to all the hidden powers made it that much more fun.
i want someone that is like that for me, and i want to be that for someone else.
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